1/11/05 01:57 am - muslimwannabe
Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim
waSalatu waSalam 'ala Rasool Allah
insha Allah i hope everyone is fine ... No one seems to be posting. I guess some people must've already started up school. I have less than 2 weeks left til school starts. I think maybe rushing into this thing wasn't really very beneficial. And plus its' kind of looking like that seerah halaqa @ school won't be starting up .... =/ Insha Allah i'm about a third done w/ the book and it's really beautiful reading about the life of the Beloved of God, sal Allahu 'alahi waSalam, so insha Allah i'll finish up the book. Insha Allah I'll just post up some reflections on some of the stuff i've come across.
One of the things i want to talk about, which wasn't really mentioned by Lings is about Sumayah, may Allah be pleased w/ her. He actually did mention her and her dying under the (page 79) but he didn't mention that she was the first martyr of islam. This brings up the point i want to make bout the status of women in islam .... Ther are certain ranks within this deen which are highly respected by everyone. One of the highest is that of a martyr (shaheed). So think about this, the first martyr of islam was a woman. Subhan Allah! There have been so many battles and Jihad for the sake of Allah, 'azza wa jal, during the time of Rasool Allah, sal Allahu 'alayhi waSalam, and it was thru many of these that so many men attained Paradise. However they were all preceded by a woman, someone who isn't allowed on the battlefield. Masha Allah. When i was younger i had imagined going off to one of these muslim countires currently engaged in war and just join in and become a martyr, but growing up i realized that Allah, 'azza wa jal, doesn't just give this station of being a martyr to any shmoe. THis is the deen of Allah. It isn't up to anyone to decide teh rankings of one or another, its only in the hands on God and truly He is Most Wise, the All Knower, All Powerful and the Most Merciful.
Also you ever realize how happy we get when we hear that someone converts to islam? How much our Iman increase when we see the new convert and go up to him and smile and hug him and how much respect we have for them since they actually CHOSE to accept islam where most of us were just born into it? Well think about this, the first person to convert to islam *ever* was also a woman!! It was no other than our mother, Khadijah, radiAllahu 'anha. Even before Abu Bakr as Siddiq or Sayiddna 'Ali, may Allah be pleased with them both. Subhan Allah! This isn't your deen, this isn't my deen. This isn't the deen of any mysogonist or whatever else! This is the religion of God.
Another thing to think about is how much the Prophet, sal Allahu 'alahi waSalam, tolerated all the crap from his people. Think about that, seriously. Most of us probably cannot since we dont know most of the people in our neighborhood .... actually for those of us dorming. Imagine everyone on your campus just simply hating you (actually that may not be that far from reality), but just imagine that. Imagine being ridiculed for everything you do. Imagine going from one of the most respected and the most trusted person to being the brunt of every ignorant statement and every action. Imagine tolerating it!! Subhan ALlah!! Imagine going to another town asking for protection but being rejected and then being driven out by having children throwing stones at you and then the opportunity to have them destroyed comes before you ...... what would you do??? The Prophet, sal Allahu 'alayhi waSalam, was a man, however he wasn't just any man. he is a diamond among stones. His heart was as grand and as noble as this universe. I just hope i can retain some of his characteristics ... but it seems that i just fail because of my own lower self. It's so easy to imagine these things, but so hard to carry them out. it's so easy to imagine waking up for fajr and then staying up afterwards but so hard to go to sleep in time to wake up for fajr. it's so easy to go around starting up a halaqa but so hard to carry out what you want to see in yourself ..... Subhan Allah. I just pray that Allah, 'azza wa jal, makes us closer to Him and His Messenger, sal ALlahu 'alayhi waSalam, and showers us with His Mercy cuz thas all we need .....